WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST QUESTION?

When asked again and again, I believe that this one question shapes the direction and content of your life.

My daily question asks simply, "How do I maintain Consciousness?" I try not to limit this question to a specific religion, quality of spirituality or essence of God. Rather, do I or can I feel fully aware in my actions, thoughts, and feelings?

My answer seems to change. On occasion I can sense the "Big Picture" so certainly that I feel nearly electrocuted with energy and weep openly. In those times I feel purely conscious. Other times a cloudiness seems to roll in with varying shades of color and hue, and in these moments I cannot help but feel afraid and confused.

My artwork is a manifestation of this conscious process. I layer experiences, color, images, and words. I wipe away, build up, let some things show through, and allow other forms to become obscured. In the end what is created represents the clouds of my mind, sometimes revealing sunlight, other times a darkening sky.

Inevitably, however, as I continue to work, my process becomes a simple prayer.

And in that space I see no distinction between my clarity and confusion.

For whether I feel Conscious or not, I am constantly surrounded by what I seek.

And in that space I realize that God is Everything.

Including the clouds.